Raining yet again here in suburbia 
I am praying for a nice few days ~ maybe a glimpse of sunshine just to brighten this general glumness 
(not myself particularly, I just tend to notice the knock-on effect in my patients)
April 2nd is Hubby's 40th 
I am really looking forward to March 28th, as we are going away for a long weekend somewhere WARM! 
We are going to go for a last minute thing and take our chances ~ wherever we end up it has to be better than Camberley in the rain 
Am on Day 61 and still following the plan to the letter.
Have finally discovered that "beautiful detatchment from food" that S has been raving about since Day 1 
Was in the queue waiting to pay for petrol yesterday, right in front of all the goodies (choccie bars, crisps, nuts, muffins etc) and found myself thinking how pretty the wrappers were 
honestly! The last time I was in that very same place, I damn well nearly hyperventilated with anxiety and deep longing 
Also, last night, whilst preparing Hubby big fat juicy steak with peppercorn sauce, cheesy mash and peas I felt nothing-nought-zip-nada-big fat zero
and THAT is a first.
I also had a think about when might be the right time to go into management. I am currently 65kgs. We have never discussed a goal weight but in my mind I have 57kgs. My lightest weight ever was 50kgs, and that was pre-babies, early 20's, so all things considered I believe 57kgs to be a S.M.A.R.T goal
I have also concluded that I cannot go back to eating tasteless gloopy stodge - ever! 
I am looking at protein and vegetables as a possible, but I know that I will be guided by S. Identification of trigger foods is another exercise yet to be explained, though I have a pretty good idea that mine will include all the carbs and much of the dairy.
It is a bit of a minefield to say the least.
I have to admit that in week 1 when S said to us "you will one day find yourselves wishing you could go back to foodpacks" we guffawed loudly and thought collectively 'yeah, right'
I have to concede that there is a distinct possibility that the woman does know what she is talking about after all
As for my online LL buddies Soozy and Emma.......I am so delighted to see that they have both done so, so well and have zoomed along at a rate of knots
It is weird to hear their up's and down's - so very similar to my own
What is also great is that it is not just my own story now
Weigh-in again Tuesday night 
and as TOTM still eludes me (why is it so late again?)am presuming that the loss will be negligible.
I am praying to touch the 2 stone mark..please pray along with me 
strength in numbers an' all that!
“The future is not something we enter. The future is something we create.”
2008-03-16 @ 21:58