Day 132
Oh dear ...had plans to take the children to the local county show followed by a long laze in the garden on the hammock 
It's raining
It's cold
Yesterday I got on my bike! first time in about 2 years 
for the time being I think I will try to stick to straight roads 
found my thigh muscles alright!
Have spent all weekend washing,Ironing,cleaning...nothing left to clean 
Guess I am missing my hubby 
'tis our small dog's birthday today, 3 years since he came to us....cannot believe we wrapped new collar and lead in pretty paper and gave it to him this morning 
I knew I was losing my mind.......
What to do when it's raining ????
Answers on a postcard......actually please post here 
Finished CV and begging (ahem) covering letter & posted on Saturday
fingers crossed 
Diet wise....tomorrow I have to decide if it's time to finish development and head off into the unknown territory that is Route To Management 
I weigh 53.9kgs now.
Funny how the mind works.....began to bargain with myself that when I reach 50kgs I will come off the packs 
I am just reallly frightened to do it 
Am hoping that my counsellor will take control as I sure as hell don't know how to!
It is beyond bizzarre that I miss eating and all that goes with it so very much but feel so safe on the foodpacks and my routine that I could quite happily do it forever 
Think I will ask for some help
My sister is away on holiday in Greece.....hubby away....best mate in portsmouth ...woe is me 
please send me something to cheer me up folks
"Remember even though the outside world might be raining, if you keep on smiling the sun will soon show its face and smile back at you.”
