Day 1 Week 2 RTM
Oh dear ......wasn't joking when I told y'all about said pea-type-brain was I? 
was bimbling along on the RTM plan quite nicely until Thursday evening when I first heard
them 
Yes...those voices coming from the biscuit tin/cupboard/crisp drawer/fridge...you name it!
What in GOD'S NAME IS GOING ON??? 
I resisted until Friday evening (there's an old behaviour rearing it's oh so fecking ugly head) when I proceeded to inform new slim self that it would be PERFECTLY acceptable just to NIBBLE on a rich tea biccy 
and that a handful of mixed nuts and raisins wouldn't do THAT much damage
Saturday was more like careering down the side of a mountain than falling off a wagon 
The two handfuls of fruit and fibre 3 biscuits and inch of toblerone made me feel just flamin' dandy for oooh all of TWO NANO-FUCKING-SECONDS!!! 
Yes folks the pea-brain lost control 
Managed to hurl self upstairs,into study and onto PC to print some large STOP signs which I have pinned onto the offending items (all the yummy stuff in the entire house)
Have been fine ever since (apart from 3 brazil nuts 
) but am DEEPLY concerned at this bizarre behaviour of mine
Have had no period for 12 weeks now and it felt very similar to the PMT craving carb frenzies of old, but that is probably just what I would like to believe....the truth is I was being a complete pig 
S did say that it would be all ups and downs on the RTM - but I was doing so very well
Have sacrificed packs and been having only 2 a day to try and redeem self 
MUST FOCUS
MUST FOCUS
MUST........... 
......FOCUS
Thank goodness I have been blessed with the best friends a girl could have...otherwise the fall might well have been much longer and bumpier (it hurt enough as it was )
I think I am back on track.....but if this weekend has taught me anything it is that complacency is NOT ON THE AGENDA
Weigh-in Tuesday night....am truly dreading it
ooh am allowed diet lemonade now 
