Day 2 Week 2 RTM
Ok...so I lost the plot just a tad 
Today I have been thinking (ouch
) and you know I am totally sick of thinking...about
food...about diets...weight loss.....weight gain....and all the psycho-babble that comes with it!
I am and always will be compulsive/impulsive in everything I do,it has often landed me in hot
water 
- accepting that is tough but it doesn't make me a terrible person 
just honest
in word and rash in actions 
I am learning how to control things and it's not going to be easy.
I will have to un-learn everything with regards to food and eating...hence abstaining becomes
suddenly very attractive!
Abstinence controlled things FOR me.
Now I have lost my parachute and am flying alone...because no matter how much support I have, I am
in charge of me
I need to take that fact and somehow celebrate it 
but use it as a building block for
something stronger.
Perspective is important here as I always tend to swing between everything being either fabulous
or dreadful
I need some balance.
I also have terrible stomach cramps 
(whinge...moan....whine 
)
Have measured self as felt bloated and completely pre-flippin'-menstrual, and have lost a total of
34 inches 
(blimey!)
Finally ....the sun is out at last and my children are still as gorgeous and brilliant as
ever
therefore I am very lucky
Wave to me guys!!
Ps.Is there actually a place called Snodland? or did I mis-hear the travel person on the radio
just now? 
PPs. Am totally lovin' the dreadful Big Brother this year simply because the way people behave is interesting after all the CBT I have sat through. Mr & Mrs image-is-everything-embarrassing-parents-ego-maniacs-R-us have me in stitches 
PPPs. Did I mention that I sat my final sign language exam last on 5th June? will find out result in 6 weeks time 
I think that's everything for now
2008-06-16 @ 20:11