Day 3 Week 2 RTM
I have never been a great believer in the whole group therapy scenario
but I am pleased to report that I have been wrong about that!
Last night was my weekly weigh-in and I went through the motions of greeting the other group members as usual,hearing about the trials and tribulations of their week.The whole time I was very fearful of stepping on the scales as I knew my lapses would hit me in the face full on 
As I thought (well actually not nearly as bad as I had predicted) I had gained weight for the first time in 23 weeeks - 1.3 lbs 
G may as well have said 1 stone 3 lbs 
it was too much and the floodgates well and truly opened 
As I knew they would both of my fellow remaining group members were right there for me (made me cry harder )
I felt kind of as though I had let them down as well as myself (critical parent crooked thinking or what!!)
We went into group and S came into her own at last 
I arrived feeling like s**t and left feeling more positive than I had felt in weeks
I managed to see how my lapses were all part of what is expected on the route to management (yes I kind of missed the word ROUTE 
)
S convinced me that the foodpacks were easy in comparison and that the really hard bit is now - I had heard her say this previously but had clearly not been really listening (? euphoria 
)
I was also able to recognise that I had managed the lapses in my own way by employing strategies that the old me would never have used.
Evidence if any was ever required that attending the group sessions religiously is totally necessary if the programme has any chance of working!
So I feel as though I'm back on track and hooray
the scales agreed with me this morning
My friends in the group are brilliant...I feel a bit bloody blessed to know them
2008-06-18 @ 12:35